Yeah I realize that I lost control of myself during a lot of what happened last night. It [censored] because I had time to prepare myself and have been planning how I was going to react but I couldn't make good on it. I managed to walk away the first time but couldn't do it the second time and from there it was a slippery slope into mots behavior.
I didn't mean to imply that her state of mind has nothing to do with the affair, only that I don't think contact with the om was what caused her change of heart.
I haven't spoken with her much today. She did email me to say that she was reading things and thinking about things. I think I need to stick to 100% commitment like I stated a few weeks ago but even if she agrees, how do I trust that it's sincere and we won't be back here again in 3 weeks?
Me:38 W:39 No Children BD: 5/13 EA/PA Confirmed: 7/13 W Moved out 12/13
