Feel like falling down

[willbwell]

Things I need to hear, I know. Thank you for the reminders. I did not text h last night. Really I am trying to stay in the present. To give the situation over to God. To stay focused on my studies.

My kids will want h here for thanksgiving. I am not going to say anything about it until week of.

I often reread the book, broken heart on hold. It helps. Although, deep down, I expect the same outcome( reconciliation)

You know, we go to these school events and I am so envious of all the intact couples. These couples have been married a long time. All my closest friends have intact marriages. All my siblings.
We have an event again this weekend. I plan on looking killer once again. But, I know I am doing it for my h to see. Oh, granted, I like getting the compliments from others.I will go and have a great time.

Heather, I do the journaling. It helps.I follow along your sit too.

GM, I know I am my life, that h is not. just spent a lot of time with him. It is so hard to let go. I do pretty good with GAL and staying busy. It often hits me either early AM or at dinner time. By the end of the day, I am so tired. I just want to get the kids fed, hw done and d to bed. It is at this time of day that I get sad and resentful. Need to come up with a plan.

Need to get to writing a research paper. Want to have it done by Thanksgiving!