I Believe it Cause I Feel It

[Whiterose]

Hi all. Not much change. I never responded to H's texts and he has not contacted me since. I'm still down in the dumps.......I did have a GREAT work weekend. I'm trying to become the inhouse floral designer for one of the biggest event decorators in the city. We did a huge weddings together this weekend and it was beautiful!!! I supervised the floral, hired staff, ordered flowers, designed and then designed some more, it was a looooooong week. Saturday was the longest day. Got to the venue at 9am. Ended up staying to help the decorator change over the escort card table to the candy bar table. She took me for dinner as we could begin striking the ballroom at 10pm as the dancing was in another room. I got home at 3:30am. I missed H tons throughout the day. He would normally be there. Bring food or coffee. The boys were alone all night. I had to call them to order a pizza. Felt like the worst mom.....but I had to work.

Yesterday my cousin, she lives 3 hours away, called. Her H had a mlc 3 years ago and they divorced 1 year ago. Nasty stuff between the two of them. Anyway, last year we all went up to her new place to set up her stuff. She's just moved again and couldn't figure out her stereo and ended up messaging H to walk her through it. She's VERY angry at him for doing this but she's also sad as she understands how awful this all is. Anyway they tried doing the set up via text and he asked if he could call her and they ended up on the phone. He asked why her boy friend didn't do it and she said they had broken up a few months back. Explained a bit and he said "yeah, he's not very nice". Really, H?? You're going to judge another man?! Anyway, he asked her why she moved and she said because not enough space for her three kids, blah, blah, blah and she said "what about you?" She said his attitude changed. He said he had found a place on the shore. They talked about the stereo again. She said she needed it done as she wanted to unpack and needed music to help with motivation and he agreed saying he understood as all he has to listen to his music on is his tv (or some thing. She couldn't remember exactly what he said). He said once things were settled it would be better for him. She said that it's hard. It takes a long, long time to find a new normal and it's still hard. He then said he really didn't want to talk to her about it as she is my cousin. The call ended soon after because her girlfriend came over.

That's all I have right now. How's everyone else been doing?