Where am I at?

[Icecoldw]

Thanks planet, we have separate bank accounts now.

Just been feeling kind of numb today, maybe a little hopeless because I know I can't do anything about what is going on. I'm afraid I might turn into a was, after she leaves because I've been hurt pretty bad that if she does decide to come back, I don't know if I would trust her with my feelings and not be able to open up. I know, that is feeling today, I'm have not detached yet. How do eked from feeling like a door mat? Just kind of thinking out loud. I'll keep reading other threads.