H called early this morning to ask about picking S4 up to take him to school. He sounded chipper and like nothing happened last night (not surprising at all). I am sure he slept like a baby while I cried and tended to our children who woke up in the middle of the night. I told him to come at 830, knowing that I would be out of the house (kids with my mom). He asked if we could not be in the house together now because of last night I simply said that last night had changed things for me, was a big wake up call and that I did not know what I was thinking and needed time. It was a short convo because I was leaving for work and trying to get the kids really.
H then called me at work and said that he was a mess after our first phone call. I could tell that he had been thinking and maybe realized for a moment that the fantasy he had been imagining may not come true.
I thought that I would be crushed today. I feel so much stronger after coming her and hearing all your advice. Thank you so much from the bottom of my heart!!
