TryingToDoA180, Thank you, I wasn't in the beginning I did everything wrong, pursued, begged you know all that stuff that pushes them away. Fortunately I have been surrounding myself with positive people and new friends as he has decided (and some old friends) that I am the evil doer. I watched my Mother live with a verbal abuser and I just refuse to live walking on egg shells. I cried and tried for years to improve things, but no matter what I did he did what he wanted to anyway and it only seemed to make things worse.
I don't know when I will not be affected by it as much but I am looking for ways to make that happen each day. There is silver lining in everything if I look and that attitude has really improved my attitude.