Ambiv...its all we can do, i too spin and spin and spin.... I have gotten better, I hardly wonder what he is doing. In fact, I'd rather not know....its just easier that way. Although there are times, I still wonder, and miss him.
Yes... we have just got to keep putting one foot in front of the other. Do not let them see our weakness (its a turn off).
Have a great day!
M:46 H:49 T:20yrs myD:22 H distant summer/12 H sleeping in b'ment: Nov/12 BD: Dec 2/12 asked me begin to move end of Jan/13 moved Jan 7/13 (left my stuff) "agreed" to "working on r" Mar 3/13(lipservice!)