New to This - An English Man In Trouble

[Hadlee58]

Thanks for the input F much appreciated Apologies for the delay in getting back i have been working away for a week or so.
Things have been pretty difficult these last two weeks and i am guilty of a couple of backslides....
I know it was wrong but i couldn't help myself bringing up our situation and the lack of closeness, i did this about a week ago and spoke straight from the heart, fatal! My W got pretty upset as did i but didn't offer any feedback although the day after she invited me for lunch and seemed in great form and that we should discuss further. This never happened and for a week or so i have been bubbling away inside until it all came out on sunday morning. I decided to go for a run on sunday morning as it was a way to clear my head and my daughter was at dance rehearsals, not the best time to go but i needed to get out of the house, this resulted in a big row where again i was accused of not doing enough to help. I found this difficult to take and although i tried to validate her feelings its so hard when i disagree so much with what she is saying. We did discuss again last night and she was very tearful and she doesn't know how to turn the love back on, again i didn't do well and talked too much which she pointed out, my comment was i am so passionate about us starting afresh, it was left like this although in a calm manner, today we have spoken and she has offered us to go out for a meal together on Wednesday night, i need to learn to keep my lips zipped when R is discussed!
So i know myself i haven't done well this last week or so, does anyone else find that sometimes you just cant help yourself even though you know its probably the wrong thing to do? Also i find it so hard to validate when we are poles apart on our views on certain things, i did during the summer just agree and convince myself she was right..... In the cold light of day today i have chilled out and have tried to process the golden nuggets of information she gave me ahead of Wednesday.

Thanks for listening H