Feel like falling down

[willbwell]

Had a great school event Sat night. I had my hair done. looked fabulous. H and I went separate. told h how nice he looked. we chatted some. just no touching. he came and found me when he was leaving.
feel weird that I can hug, check kiss other friends, but not h.

we have another school event to go to next weekend. not sure if we are going together or separate. I could catch a ride with friends.

we have had no convo about the temporary orders. I am not bringing it up.

I still look at h and my heart melts. I still want to be with him. Don't know what the status is the with ow. have not asked him.

even, after a year, still amazing to me what h is willing to give up- was life with me so bad that he could give up even one day with his kids? I am not perfect, but I know I am pretty good... I know this is h's deal.

got school today. Got plenty of errands for the week ahead.
Plan on looking fab once again for our event Sat. night