Don't know what to think

[T-boned]

Feelin' pretty down tonight. Like I have no more fight or hope in me. IC told me a couple of weeks ago that in some situations one of the two spouses crosses over that line where there is no turning back. They are done and gone.

I feel like that's where my H is and it hurts so bad. His comment a few weeks ago about how he would like to be able to do things together as friends just cuts me to the bone. At this point in time the thought of that being our future together is seemingly impossible.

I almost feel as bad as the day he left.

Better look at Sandi's list tomorow.