The tide is high, but I'm holding on

[reachingHigher]

TVS, I read your posts eagerly this weekend as if devouring a novel.

I applaud you for having the fortitude to state where you are emotionally, and giving H the open door. It was perfect.

I love that he wants to stay. That he still cares about you.

I admire you for taking a break from here and doing what you need to do. You've been carrying a weight for so long. I admire you so much.

I hope your H really asks himself about where his life is going, what his values are, etc. As you remember from my sitch, it felt like an aircraft carrier turning around, but here I am a year later blissfully awaiting the holidays.

I kept holding on to job's occasional statements about holidays sometimes producing a "miracle". Oh, I how wanted that SOOOOO badly. Could it possibly be a miracle for me? I never win anything. Could it happen this time?

You know it did! It was a huge miracle! And not that we didn't face a lot of work this year and plenty of times I said bad words about H into the open air with no one listening, it was worth all the trouble.

But those are all iffy things and your H needs to be willing to do some hard work. I hope and wish, more than you can imagine, that he is willing.

Oh, TVS, I often recall little tidbits of your posts to me. You have been a faithful friend for me and an awesome W and mother.

Your boys have more to be grateful for than they will ever realize.

There is nothing love cannot face; there is no limit to its faith, hope and endurance.

Yes, yes and yes!
I love your tag line change!