You do have to try to get your emotions in check, ok? Doesnt serve you or the sitch well.
You got to thinking about where he was and allowed that to affect your actions.
So, try really hard to detach and have no expectations. In his mind, he told you he doesnt want to be in the marriage, so, he feels he has no obligation to let you know his whereabouts.
Doesnt mean he will always feel that way. But it is how he thinks he feels now. So, it is best not to let your mind go to where he might be.
You have to lovingly let him go to walk this journey.
And you have to continue to work on you.
You want him to see someone different. Someone in control, someone with strength and courage.
Can you try to count to 50, or take a walk, or say a prayer before getting into a text war with him?
Can you accept that he is in crisis right now? And he is incapable of acting rationally at times?
When you do, you can begin to really detach. And that is where you need to be.
