Where am I at?

[Icecoldw]

Thanks Mel and fly, I need the words of encouragement, I am defiantly realizing a lot about my self and there's many things I need to change, I'm not beating up on my self just doing some soul searching. Yes I can understand how the w fell out of love with me and I know I have a lot of work ahead of me. I have been acting childish and feeling sorry for myself and Im getting tired of it. When I get tired of a sitch it usually causes me to change what I'm doing, I just have to hit rock bottom before I start to climb out. I can see how this journey I'm on is going to change me for the better. I'm a creature of habit and do not like change especially if there is a lot of change quickly. The other thing that doesn't help is there is a lot of change going on at work, so I can't escape change at the moment. I am going to become the man that any woman will be foolish to leave.