Hanging on to the roller coaster

[CallaghanClown]

Feeling the strain of being a single parent today. Only for about an hour, but it would have been great to have someone to just take over for a few hours just for a rest.

Instead we joined a friend and her family and had some fun together. 3 adult and 4 kids.....much better. Felt sad but my husband was never around anyway, so it was no different to before. I wonder if he'll ever miss me???

I do miss the family time we used to have. Lots. He's starting to let the kids down more often. Calling after they're in bed and not even asking after them, just like before. Saying he can't visit them because he doesn't have any money, then going to expensive bars with friends...... Then he gets angry when we're not here whenever he wants us or at the end of the phone.

Other than the not even asking about the kids.....it's totally out of character.

I've tried having family time with other families, with my family, with my friends, but nothing feels as good as the days us 4 had together. Even when we have family time together now, it's better than any alternative ive tried.

With time this will pass.