Where am I at?

[Icecoldw]

Thanks fly, I'm tying to think things through instead of being so impulsive, your right about the door locks, I think I was looking for a response if I did it, again I'm trying to control the sitch. These are things I'm starting to see about myself and change and it's not going to be easy since I have 47 years of habit.

No ic don't think I have the money at the time, have been going to church and seeing my pastor. I do have a good friend at work that has been through this and he lets me talk and vent. Kind of afraid of going on antidepressant in the fact I don't want to get hooked.

I have always over thought things in my head, can't seem to let things go, that's another thing I'm trying to change. Do you know of any books that could help.