this is so sick here- i just lost - (not lying) five notes to you. type them, hit something or another and lose them. this damn laptop (but i can sit in comfry chair in sunny window instead of upstris in a dark corner)
anyway- i like the lucifer idea- it's true. it's only a giant deadline (and RESULT) when what's been in your head doesn't match up with reality. OLE grass being geener and all.
much much better and happier form e to reside in the land of one day at a time. it's helped me survive- i even "feel" it- not just lip service. it sure makes ya let go of a heck of alot of junk.
watching my mom getting older and older and more and more mad about it- wtf does one do about THAT? I'M askin ya.
h too- now that i say it- he's typical guy thatplanned this and planned that and when it all came true - and he wasn't abso-fing-lutely spinning like a top with excitement - he shot off into outer space. oiy....
grateful today for a cozy little house around me on this chilly morning- hoping to have the intestinal fortutude to stand a bit longer. i'm a ROCK- it's who i am. it's what i do.
lets hope i continue - for awhile yet. in the day it seems like i can- all night i swear to self i'm stopping this insanity-
will see who wins in the end i guess. hae wonderful day- thank hyou & drive thru please.
