The tide is high, but I'm holding on

[mizjjd]

I felt a lot of anger towards him. I couldn't stand to be near him or hear the sound of his voice. Looking at him, all I thought of was how much he has hurt me.

This is exactly where I am TVS. Exactly. Its awful. Its not who I want to be, a hate filled person. It seems to be building and building within me and I know I will have to address it soon.

I'm tired of pretending that there isn't a third person in our M. It isn't fair to me, I deserve better.

Yes, you definitely deserve better. And I love this line and am going to use it. Sooner or later.

He says - I'm nice to you, I try to be nice to you. Don't you think I'm nice?

I say - yes, you are nice to me. But you aren't loving or affectionate in any way.

I have heard a variation on this theme from my H. Like "nice" makes the "nasty" okay. Well, it doesn't.

Kudos to you for remaining a cool cucumber.

Take care!