Where am I at?

[Icecoldw]

Thanks sandi, I really needed to read that, it makes a lot of sense. I keep thinking if I say the right thing it will get through to her and you are right, if she is not in the right frame of mind she will not hear. The thing is I asked what I haven't done in the past and she said express my feelings, so I thought by writing a heart felt letter I was doing a 180.

We've talked a little today and next Sunday looks like it will be her last night, it's kind of a relief because I am not left wondering when is she leaving. She also brought up that if see leaves will I file abandonment and I said I had no intention. Reminded her that our original plan was to try a temporary separation, not jump right into d, I guess her friends have been telling her that I would try so that is why she was going to rush into filing. Mentioned to her that I don't want either one of us to rush to a decision based on emotion because we might regret it later.

I read somewhere that by letting her go that she will not be getting the needs that I am filling now. It was referring if there is om in the pic that he is filling some needs that I'm not and I'm filling the other, that is one reason they sit on the fence and can't decide, but by letting her go the needs I was feeling no longer get met.
Makes since to me because then she really does have to make a decision.

When she leaves I will need some guidance on how to let her know that I'm not plan b and that I might not take her back but I don't want to force her into a d, she can be strong-willed I can see how that can be a very fine line.

I have to work on my pride and ego, I think that is one of my big hang ups right now and with letting her make her own mistakes.