The tide is high, but I'm holding on

[Takevowsserious]

Now I will tell you that I did not go into this unprepared. I had some pretty wonderful people help me in what to say. I had a short script planned.

Well, take acting off my list of possible career choices, because I didn't exactly stick to my script - sorry Mach! Lol!!!

I did start out with the script - told him I was unhappy living like this. He said - what do you mean? I said - living a fake life, living a lie. I'm tired of pretending that there isn't a third person in our M. It isn't fair to me, I deserve better.

I was prepared for his denial. I told him I didn't need him to confess, I already knew it was true. I wasn't going to debate it with him.

I asked him - do you think I'm dumb? Do you think so little of me, that you think I'm an idiot and can't see the obvious?

He says - no, I don't think you're dumb.

I say - I have known you for many years, have been friends with you, have been your wife for how long? Really H, how could I not know?

He says - I'm not that same guy from years ago.

I say - I know. I'm not that same person either. A lot has happened to us, life has thrown a lot at us. I don't expect you to be that same guy from years ago, but I do expect you to be honest with me.

He says - I'm nice to you, I try to be nice to you. Don't you think I'm nice?

I say - yes, you are nice to me. But you aren't loving or affectionate in any way.

He says - I know. I need to be better.

This leads into a long talk about a lot of things.