What are your core values, and can you live by them every day?

It's interesting that you felt you deserved more and so broke your commitments to get, what, an attractive and attentive lover? You might have felt that you deserved more and so committed yourself to being a better partner. I am just thinking out loud because thinking you were getting more you did something destructive to your life, marriage, and self esteem. Why did you value sex more than self respect?

I think living intentionally, knowing and following your values and priorities, healing the old wounds that led to bad choices (is your self esteem better now?), you can't go wrong.

Adinva 51, S20, S18
M24 total
6/15/11-12/1/12 From IDLY to H moving out
9/15/15-3/7/17 From negotiating SA to final D at age 50
5/8/17-now: New relationship with an old friend
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Happiness is a warm puppy.