Fog City Coaster continues

[2ndtimearoundCA]

Last night D16 ended up wanting to do her own thing and she wasn't so sick that I couldn't leave her so I went over to a friends house drank a few beers and caught up on "The Walking Dead".

So I am curious about people's thoughts on the following.

Last night I spent time with a female friend of mine who I dated early on in my sitch. We called it off in early July (if my memory serves me) and decided to just be friends.

Flash back to Early April.

At this time in my situation I felt like W and I had very little hope of reconciliation. I was gonna move on, be happy, and live my life. I took the warp speed path to detachment. I did still hold on to a sliver of hope and remained in contact with w (I was doing that texting thing), but mostly I was living my life. My thinking at the time was that I was gonna date and possibly meet someone who would be a better match for me. After all, w had told me in no uncertain terms that she was completely done.

My thinking on this has since changed. I still need to make some serious changes to me before I am ready for any relationship.

It was early July that w agreed to go to Las Vegas with me (didn't happen) and that was the time I took a seat on the emotional roller coaster that I am on now. Hope grows and shrinks and I have a hard time controlling expectations.... Detaching, while still wanting to be with w and believing it is possible, is something I have yet to master.

Flash forward to the present.

I have remained friends with a woman who I dated since BD and I have made friends with her friends. We are really are just friends now. She dates other people and I give her advice etc. Nonetheless, if w and I decided to work on the M, I would likely need to cut this woman out of my life; I wouldn't want w to hang out with people she dated while we were separated. Btw, w has no idea what I am doing or who I am with, just like I have no idea what she is doing.

It is tough to cut a friend out of your life. As more time goes by it will be even harder. If w and I don't R, then I have no reason to cut off this friendship. Right now I am feeling very little hope for w and I.