It definitely does censored. It is so hard. When you're hurt or scared do you mask it with "humor" sometimes? I thought this last post was very honest and sincere.
Do you believe her? Yes. Believe that she doesn't want you and doesn't want to try. That doesn't stop you from believing that her feelings can change, and there lies your hope.
Refusing to believe that she wants out, insisting that your marriage is fixable and she's doing the wrong thing, is going to push her away. It is NOT listening, NOT respecting, NOT understanding her feelings that she is being very clear about. Be willing to let her go, because it is the only way she can get enough space to make her own decision to come back. She's NOT EVER going to come back because you insisted.
Your changes are good. Try to relax, I know it is hard, try to lose the fear. The best thing that can come out of DBing is the strength of conviction that you will be OK no matter what. Fear is not attractive, and it doesn't lead to good decisions.
It sounds like you have made good changes. Relinquish any sense that you might control or influence your W, and let what happens happen. Your job is to work on you.
I do not think fighting her petition will score you any points.
Your positive outlook is that you woke up while you still had a chance to be a present dad for your kids. Your life will be better forevermore because your W bombed you. You may not like where your marriage ends up, but you can like where your life ends up...and ironically that's the only way you'll look appealing to return to.
Adinva 51, S20, S18 M24 total 6/15/11-12/1/12 From IDLY to H moving out 9/15/15-3/7/17 From negotiating SA to final D at age 50 5/8/17-now: New relationship with an old friend __ Happiness is a warm puppy.
