heres your first lesson that you not only need to learn, you need to live!!
STOP THINKING WHAT SHE THINKS.
You gain NOTHING by doing that, in fact you keep setting yourself back further and further. Instead of 2 steps forward and one back, your three steps backwards.
Write a list of 10 things you want to change about yourself, or can be doing better. I want that to be your only focus for now. Write 5 things that you can be doing to get yourself out of the house or keeping yourself busy. This list isn't for us to read, but for you to keep in a place at home that you can grab when you start to spin out. When you go off the rails, grab your list and read it over and over till you start to get yourself under control, then pick one of the 5 things to go do.
