Meltdown evening. He called again because "I'm the one he has to speak to". I reiterated that its great to hear him talking again. Gave him air time then broke off when it started getting stale.

I want to be there for him because he's heading for rock bottom and if last night happens again I want to be able to call in help (his friend, the police, the crisis team, whoever). Rather that than him killing himself or someone else.

But I think he's leaning on me too much now. How do I get the necessary balance? Become less available?

I feel like he needs to understand what life is like without me in it, but it doesn't seen possible. Young kids, mental illness......I just don't see how it can be done. Advice? I want to concentrate on me......how can I do that when I'm fielding his calls every day?


M32 H37
DD1 6 DD2 5
M6 T10
EA 31.08.13
Separated and H moved out 19.09.13
ILYBINILWY 23.09.13
OW 11.13