Where am I at?

[Icecoldw]

Ok, I'm starting to nose dive. Too much time to think when I drive.

I know I am supose to validate her feelings and that she has been hurt deeplwhen do my feelings and pain get validated? I can't keep going on like I'm superan and that my feelings don't get hurt because I will go back to like i was and start surpressing them again so I don't have to deal with th

I know I'm supposed to detatch so my feelings don't get hurt but I don't See how you can care and love somebody and no matter what.they do or say you dont get hurt.

It feels like every thing that has hurt her in the past, not just me, she is doing to me. Ex she got dumped on her bday she is leaving me right before mine, she's been cheated on I don't know if she is cheating on me but the signs are there. It's like everything she was afraid I would do to her or that she accused me of doing, she is doing to me. Dont mean to sound like a victim but that is what it seems like almost like she is testing me to see how much I love her,