Well after a solid week of good DBing I lost it on him tonight. D9 has been having problems at school and it hit me that he's leaving me here all alone to deal with it. Right now I don't feel like I can so I lit into him. Told him I hope what ever elusive happiness he is looking for is worth messing up his kids life. Yeah a low blow but it's what he's doing.
So I removed myself from his presence and holed up in the bedroom for a bit to calm down. A hot bath that I could cry in and not be heard and then some computer time. I refuse to speak to him again tonight.
Next Friday we see a lawyer about starting the D process. I hope I can hold it together. I don't know what to do.
H-44 Me-43 D9 T-13 years M-12 years BD-8/21/13 Sep- 11/19/13 D in process
