Hoping to still move forward, huge setback

[cbtdad]

Hey JP. Doing well, thanks for checking in.
We had a MC appt yesterday and it went very well.
We spent the entire sessions discussing boundaries and where we are at with these things. The MC said we both had very valid and logical points and concerns. And that sometimes couples come in with these issues and think mediation is going to happen. Lol
At the end he said we weren't as stuck apart on these issss as each other think we are. And this morning it actually hit me with what he meant based on other things said during session.
The W pointed out "not having faith in her" basically trust again.
It finally hit me. I do trust her. I do have faith in her.
But I still am hurting from this and I have not healed from this.
So the thought of her even being in te same place as OM is very painful. I talked to W about it this afternoon and she completely understood at that point. I toms her that I want to heal from this and move forward but that I needed her help in doing so.
On another front I had accepted a new job. I am leaving the financial planning world an headed back to the automotive industry. I got an offer that I couldn't turn down. W and I excited about this. Another new thing!