Regarding the joke, I just meant those weren't very expensive versions of those items and that wasn't going to really impress anyone.
And you should indeed "get it out" here if you feel the need. This is your thread, it's for YOU. Just think about examining why you're allowing yourself to go through what appears to be a self-inflicted torture on top of an already difficult enough situation.
I think that's what people are trying to say, not that they don't want to read your posts or that you shouldn't post. At least, that's what *I* was saying when I posted:
"Or perhaps just accept that he is and move forward...stop letting the possibility of it eat you alive every day."
That's all. I don't think bottling it up will help either, because you'll eventually just explode. So you've got people who generally care trying to help (and that's a good thing to have), but if you really just want to vent then let 'er rip!
Endure well!
-PM
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