You are improving CC! Yes, it is SO hard to see them in pain and there isn't a d@ng thing you can do about it. Especially when they don't want you to.
That's why it is so critical to focus on you and make you happy with YOU. It takes time, but those anxious feelings will become less and less. You are doing well so far, keep posting all your anxiety here.
Me:49 H:47 S: 16 T:27 M:25 My EA: 2001 His PA: 10/2007, 6/2013 Separated, but H still in house
Find your Shambala: a place of peace and happiness.