Oh yeah. I get it. It's not that he's hurting you directly. It's partly that you see him in pain. It's not an easy path to walk, and sorting out your own feelings will take a very long time. But it'll come.
Hang in there.
AJ


"Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter" MLK
Put the glass down...
"Yesterday I was clever so I wanted to change the world
Today I am wise, so I am changing myself."