Where am I at?

[Icecoldw]

Patientman, thanks for the response. I think what you are telling me is don't let my anger make me make a decision that will permanently close doors too soon. That I need to stand back and process everything before making a decision. In the past, I have had knee jerk reactions that after I took the time to rereevaluate I realized I made the wrong decision. I'm tring to find the patients inside of me because I know the the decision that I make will not only affect me but also my son. Like I said there are a ton of questions I have and a w that can't answer them right now. I was feeling sorry for my self eariler and basicly wondering when is it going to be my turn when are my feels going to be validated.

I understand what you mean about looking at yourself from an outside perspective. Its just had to do when your in the moment that's going to take some practice.

Its hard for me to stand back and not try and fix something that I see is broken or try to help. Its like me going to work with my hands tied behind my back and my mouth taped shut, then I'm told to go out and help an apprentice but we still have to correct the problem in the same amout time as it would normally take me if I was by myself. Frustrsting as hell