M ... Thinking about you today! Please know that you have lots of people in your corner sending you good wishes and prayers today. It is going to be a hard one, but I can see that you are strong and you truly are going to get through this. You will start to see bright moments/days through this dark time.
It is ok to be a hysterical crying mess sometimes. You need to process the pain and anger. For a few weeks, I tried to bottle it all in. While it felt good for a while, it led to a breakdown in front of H. My IC said that if I did not feel the sadness and pain she would be worried about me because this is all a normal reaction to the trama that we are going through.
You also need to give yourself more credit ... your posts are already filled with successes. I can see in your posts that you understand that you cant fix H. You have a plan and are ready to start walking your own journey. Some people dont even get that far.
