[SemperFi00]

OK – foolishly it’s been awhile since I posted here. Have continued to lurk and read other’s stories which has been helpful and nothing much has changed in my situation but I think it will be helpful to try and get back to posting……

I guess there has been one new development (which I think is part of the script but not sure – would love to hear from some of the more experienced vets). Quick synopsis of my situation – this part of the story began 2.5 – 3 years ago with first B-date. There have been a couple of other B-dates since then but then things seem to find a stabilization point for awhile.

This past Tues morning in conversation w/W for the first time she made the statement that she “was not sure that I have ever really been in love with you.” Devastating to hear even though I realize that this is often part of the script…… We talked for a bit and she shared that she wasn’t sure that leaving was going to make her feel “happy” and “have the ability to smile again” but that she was willing to take the risk anyway. W has said before that she no longer has loving / marriage feelings but this new statement may indicate something different. Any sense for what this means in terms of where she is at in her journey? Why does this statement hurt again given the other things she has already said?

I didn’t argue with her about it but did stupidly tell her that I wanted her to be happy also and that I hoped at some point that she could see a different way to approach things. For those that have kept up with my story (bless you for that) she has continued to be unwilling to do anything else or investigate any other things that could potentially be contributing factors.

Thanks for any insight or thoughts…………