Ambivalent, I've always liked roller coasters and pinball machines, so I won't be getting motion sickness from your postings. So, How are you doing today? Your list for today looks like it will keep you busy.
It's one step at a time and don't try to take on too many projects at once. Figure out which ones are a priority and go from there. Okay?
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.