Lost I am like you when my H calls...I get nervous and frazzled when the D is brought up and I am totally not as smooth and in control as others, so don't feel bad. You recieved some great advice for next time. It also may help to think about certain topics and how you will respond before hand so you are ready when they do come up.
me: 30 H:30 tgthr:7 m:4 no kids 5 counseling sessions initiated by H as a LR: Oct 2012 long distance marriage b/c of work since Nov 2012 official BD: July 2013 nothing filed 1/1/14 I dropped the rope