I've looked at life from both sides now

[RosaLinda]

oh Raine, your post helped me too. I understand you not totally trusting him, especially as my own H temporarily reconciled and then jumped right back into replay with both feet. Everyone says how difficult this final stage is; I think you're doing great. And do NOT think you'll "be the one to blow it up first."

I love what uRw wrote "That being said, of course you are guarded. And that's ok, really. You have to protect your heart. I get that. Just dont be so guarded that you dont enjoy the possibility of a future with your h. Dont be so guarded that he feels it impossible to really get close. This point you are at is a fragile time for both of you. Take your time. Let him lead, but, show him the way, too."

You are doing so great, sitting back and letting H go thru this last stage at his own pace. I would want to push him too Hang in there, I hope to be in your shoes someday and need you to lead the way!