Quick breakdown of dinner with W and D tonight. W had just gotten her hair done before meeting us, told her it looked very nice. She of course thinks its not blonde enough, I just said I like it that color because it looks very natural. Just small talk during dinner, she asked if I was excited about my trip I responded yes and no without going into any detail.
D was being very antsy to get home so we were only there for 35 minutes tops. Walk back to our cars, W waits outside car for me to strap D in car seat. She gives me a big hug followed by a couple kisses on the lips. She asks me to text her tonight and tomorrow, I say ok have a good night. As I get to my car door she looks over and says I love you. I return ILY too and we headed our seperate ways.
Seemed like another great night to me for sure. She just has a different look in her eyes when we have been together these last two times. Oh and no alcohol tonight that could have been the only reason for her opening up to me. It's so hard fighting the urge to get excited over this, but I am staying as mentally cool with this as possible.
separated since 9/01/13 M-31 W-36 D-4 Move back home 12/26/13 3 months of tough times Finally in a happy M
Another ILY in goodnight text from W. What the heck is going on here? Is this typical behavior? I don't know what to think, but I know what not to think.
separated since 9/01/13 M-31 W-36 D-4 Move back home 12/26/13 3 months of tough times Finally in a happy M
She claims that she has. Anytime since her accident that she has been free we have spent together. But who really knows on that one. She made a point of telling me that she has not seen him since that night. I will be out of town for a week as of tomorrow so it is what it is. I certainly hope the EA is over,but I'm not going to sit here and worry about it.
I just know what the look in her eyes has been lately, and its a good look. Its hard to explain really, I have been keeping very good eye contact with her when we talk. One of the things I did not used to do. Guess only time will tell
separated since 9/01/13 M-31 W-36 D-4 Move back home 12/26/13 3 months of tough times Finally in a happy M
Well gonna pick up D from the house after work so I can spend a little time with here before I leave tomorrow. W had another bad day at work, go figure. Woke up with a bladder infection she says, its been one thing after another for her. Just gonna enjoy my D, its gonna stink not being able to see her again til next Wednesday
separated since 9/01/13 M-31 W-36 D-4 Move back home 12/26/13 3 months of tough times Finally in a happy M
So few more ILY's from wife over phone earlier. Go to pick D up from W at house after work. Notice W has her wedding rings on for the first time. I did not say anything then she brings it up. W just says she decided to try them on. I was caught off guard by this and just smiled.
Got another ILY when I left with D. Get back a few hours later and W has her best friend over. Now I notice rings are not on? Anyways I hung out for about half a hour then we got ready to say our goodbye. Couple big hugs and some kisses. She tells me to text her between flights and to be careful. Another big hug and kiss followed by ILY's and here I am back at home.
Another very positive interaction with W. The ring thing just confuses me. Did she not want her friend to see her wearing them? Who knows, I suppose I should just take it as a positive that she put them on at all. It's the first time she has to my knowledge since we separated.
separated since 9/01/13 M-31 W-36 D-4 Move back home 12/26/13 3 months of tough times Finally in a happy M
I think that if she still is having the EA, which I dont believe she is at this time that we could still piece our M back together. The reason I say this is that she is deffinately noticing the changes I am making for myself which directly effect her. She is coming closer back to me at this time.
If she has ended the EA, I think this would be a very good sign that there is hope for our M. She is slowly seeing that the new me can give her what she has wanted all along. She does not need the attention from someone else if I'm there to give it to her. I have been very happy around her with subtle touches like a rub on the back for example. I have only started the touching since she said it was ok and she wanted me to.
No, I do not want my old M back and neither does she. It clearly did not work so who would want that back? I want a M where we are both on the same page, sit down and really talk everyday, hold hands, sit on the couch and cuddle. Just really enjoy eachother on all levels. I know we can be like that now that I have really had the chance to discover what I really want in my M that I was too blind,affraid, or w/e it was before.
Running late sorry could not go into more detail, off to the runway haha. I'll be in touch as soon as I can...
separated since 9/01/13 M-31 W-36 D-4 Move back home 12/26/13 3 months of tough times Finally in a happy M
Nothing like a 3 hour layover . W says her face hurts bad today for some reason. She looks a lot better now, the black and blue is going away. She sent me a pic of herself from work. She wants me to buy her a Philadelphia sweatshirt. I know DB say no gifts, but I also know what my W likes as far as getting gifts. Not sure what to do yet.
separated since 9/01/13 M-31 W-36 D-4 Move back home 12/26/13 3 months of tough times Finally in a happy M
So been texting W during layover. I slipped up at let her know I felt a little bad about leaving. She asked why and I was honest. Told her I feel we have been making positive progress and seems like a bad time to leave.
W responds
You leaving is not going to make a difference. There is positive progress and it will be the same when you get back. Enjoy the woods. I'm giving you the chance to prove yourself and a week is not going to matter.
Made me feel really good seeing that. I still need to try to focus on enjoying my time away. The better things get between us the harder it becoming to stay detached for me.
separated since 9/01/13 M-31 W-36 D-4 Move back home 12/26/13 3 months of tough times Finally in a happy M
