Quarter Life Crisis?

[flgurl84]

Good Morning All....still no posts! This moderation stinks!
Oh well, anyways....
Yesterday wasn't a bad day. Work was OK, got home, did some relaxing, hanging around the house. Boo got home around 6PM. I took the dog for a walk, we had a good time, as always.

Got home, and did the best Acting As If I have ever done. I basically forgot that he was home! Boo was in the computer room (aka his room) and I got back from the walk, turned the TV on, got a drink, started watching some shows. I like to sit after a walk, so Paw will lay down and cool down. Paw is quite clingy and if I'm up and about he will follow me. Now I might now be winded from a 30 min walk, but he is, so I sit for about 30 min after, so he will just lay on the cool tile and chill. That is what we did. Boo initiated some convo, I mainly concentrated on my TV shows, talked with Paw, just acted AS IF I was alone and not feeling awkward or anxious because Boo was home.

He did end up leaving, but we sat for about 20 min chit chatting. MIL's bday is monday, and my SIL text Boo asking what "we" (meaning her and him) were doing for it. He and I are both on the outs with his sis. I laughed when he told me, and said what she can't do something for mama without you? Figure it out Heather!
Then he asked what WE were doing (him and I!) for MILS bday. A part of me was SO ANGRY!! WTF do you mean WE??? DO YOU HAVE A MOUSE IN YOUR POCKET? (one of my Dad's sayings, still makes me smile) YOU WANT TO BE ALONE REMEMBER???? THERE IS NOW WE!!! YOU M EFFER!!!!! BUT, and I didn't. I just said I didn't know I wasn't sure. I might just go see her after church on Sunday like I always do (which I do alone). He started talking about some gift ideas, sounded a little flustered and then said Ok we will figure it out. Again kid we are not a we.
I am unsure if this is cake eating or if because I feel like I finally have dropped the rope and all my expectations, he can sense it and he wants to try to come around. I dunno. Very confused. I worry so much about cake eating. I feel enough like a doormat as it is, I don't want to look at "baby steps" and think thats what they are, when they are really just Boos way of cake eating.
Well I am sticking to my plan, Sunday after church visit my MIL by myself as always, with a candle and nice card for her. Boo can figure it out on his own.
Tonight we have a dinner date. He his cooking his homemade chicken tenders. So we will see how that goes. I plan on keep all my plans. Walk with my Paw and 8-9pm is an hour of pleasure reading before bed. It feels good to have my own routine.
I had a dream last night I'd like to write about, but later, I have to get ready for work, I slept right til my alarm!
BYE All and God Bless!