PM, thank you for your response. I hear you, and I have decided that I am going to get through this and be strong and come out a better person. I work really hard at having a PMA, and I think I am pretty successful most of the time. I love to come here for encouragement, to be reminded of how to be strong, and also, to vent. Each day feels like a roller coaster of emotions right now. I will be OK for a few hours, and then something hits me and I'm just a mess. Sometimes I am a hysterical crying mess, sometimes just sad, sometimes angry. But yes, it always does get better - I just have to remember that during the moments when I feel hopeless. I am looking forward to the days where I have more PMA time than sad,hurt,angry time. Though I'm pretty sure things are going to get worse before they get better.
DBing is my savior right now . . . it gives me hope and a purpose in a really dark time. And so do the wonderful people on this forum!
I might vent sometimes, but hopefully as time goes on, more of my posts will be about my successes. Stay tuned!
me: 44 XH: 42 M 11 years D10 and S8 Bomb drop 9/27/13 D final 7/1/14
