new start for me

[kelela]

NQ there is a reason that I'm feeling this way I know that in The beginning of my situation that I did all the wrong things about The step that everyone has done. Well I had a phone call and many messages from H which is mostly coming from OW appeartly there are things still going around about my situation with H and in both of their profession its a big No no on what they are doing. Anyway OW wanted to talk to about wants going around and I told him no I will not talk to her because I haven't confide in anyway to anymore lately ( they don't know that I come here to talk to ppl). Well she had said that if do not stop opening my mouth about this whole situation she was going to file charges against me for deformation of character on her; basically she doesn't want her work place or anyone else know that they are living together because she is not divorced yet and it could cost her her job and it could also hurt her divorce battle. So they were threating me to make sure i dont talk about this whole situation. At that point I had to have my MIL to help me before I said or do the wrong thing. The only reason I had spoken MIL is cause their threat had gotten to me and I was scared. MIL had to bring me back down to earth and she told me not to worry because as long as I don't call her other names that is not appropriate she has nothing against me because the things I did say is all true that my H had left me for another women that happened to be married and her name was so and so. Which I know it wasn't The right thing to do; this was all done before I sign up with DB web site. And MIL said that OW must be drinking again and when she drinks she net picks at H for every little thing and she is very insecure about her life. And MIL said just let her file charges on me cause I will have more ppl backing me up then she does. And plud she won't win the case because everything that she is afford of is all true she and H are living together and they are by law still both married and in the state that we live in doesn't go for this behavior. All the LBS always win in the divorce cases. and they both know this and they want to keep things quite. So they are trying to scare me and once again I let it get to me. This is one of my steps I'm trying to work on. I'm working on to stop being affaid to standing up for myself. And i know that I have to do this for myself to be able to stand up against H and OW when they threating me for The truth on what's going on. Well I better stop here for mow .