Intro - hoping for support/advice on DBing

[melissag]

I've never slept in this house alone. It's gonna be awful.

How do you guys deal with the loneliness? For 13.5 years, H has been with me almost every single night and almost every single weekend. Weekends were for family activities. Now it will be just me and the kids, or me alone. I am used to doing my own thing during the day when H is at work and the kids are at school, and that alone time was great . . . but I knew at the end of the day I'd have my family around. How am I going to fill that enormous hole?

I don't know if I can give up the kids all weekend. But they won't fill the hole left by H anyway. Ugh. I feel like the past 6 weeks have been full of having to decide between multiple awful options. And I am having trouble even deciding which ones are the least crappy.

This s.u.c.k.s.