I agree, the list she gave me doesn't apply to where I am or we are. I believe it is more for people who are working as a couple. That in and of it's own hurts.
You are right I am broken. It is as I'm another person. I am not myself and do feel lost, weak and very unstable. I can be doing something around the home, driving down the road, or be at school, and just burst into tears. I've wailed, and I haven't wailed like that since I had to put down a 5.75 year old yorkie who had heart failure.
It is gut wrenching and even frightening to hear myself.
Yes, thank you anything specific on detaching and letting go would be very much appreciated. I yearn for control over my emotions, and fear that I am losing myself in all of this chaos and stress.
Thanks again everyone, I know I'm a blubbering fool right now...I am trying as much as I can right now.
Formerly Workinprogress H :55 M :over 29 yrs. Together : 33 D : college D : adult BD and left : May 2013 Separated Experimenting/Replay
