Me 1 year on pt2.

[Not Quitting]

I hear ya, HWA. But you are better and stronger. Think positive - even when it's hard.

Our sitches knocked us all and totally destroyed our self-confidence. But you've come a long way and you've improved.

You've got it - focus on your move. And D doesn't mean it's the end, unless you decide that it is. You can still keep up the DBing, GALing and make yourself and your life better.

If you don't cheer up, you'll have TTD, MH and me giving you a list of British, American or Canadian comedians to look up on YouTube - after all laughter is the best medicine .

[hotwheelsaust]

NQ, no, that's all I need comedians from other countries. We have enough comedians, all the politicians.

Please understand that I am still trying to be as positive as possible. I understand these sitches knock us all and destroy our self-confidence, not just me.
I am and will continue to focus on my move, GAL, DBing and maintain a PMA.

[planet]

We have enough comedians, all the politicians.

That is the funniest thing I've heard all week.

Try reading up on Malaysian politics. I think you might just want to migrate here for the daily foot in mouth things they say.

[hotwheelsaust]

I have heard lots of politic stuff in Malaysia. Not to mention you have one of our most favourite criminals, Michelle Corby.

[JuneReN]

Somedays I am strong, some days I am weak. Some days I believe I am doing the right thing, some days I don't believe I have done the right thing.
Somedays I simply give up, cannot do this anymore, don't want to do this anymore. Somedays I want to do my best.
Somedays you simply wonder what am I hoping to achieve, yes a better me, a more positive me, but in truth am I achieving this?

A big issue I have been having in the last few days, is the flatmate. But more importanly when you have spent the last year trying to better yourself, trying to be a better person and then get told so many things from one person that puts your self esteem donwn, that makes you think that everything your tried to be was in vain or didn't come across as any better than what I was before BD. I start to ponder it all. Is this why nothing in my sitch has changed? Because I really haven't changed? Am I still the same person, but I simply think I am better?

I am questioning everything I have done or doing. My latest thoughts are that I would pay out the W for the value of the houses and then take over the loans. I was doing this for me, and for my boys, so that there is always a place for them to visit, stay at, or take over if need be.

I hate this rollercoaster ride.

Maybe it is getter harder as I see the W has really made her mind up, it is over

Welcome to being human. The thing is now you have the tools to recognize these emotions and deal with them, if you so choose.

Think back to when this began and you didn't have the slightest idea of why hurt felt like anger and joy felt like compromise.

It comes and goes. Hang in there

[hotwheelsaust]

Thanks so much Ruby.

[hotwheelsaust]

A good day today. One of my GAL activities was to learn to play guitar, and while I am still a long way from sounding like I can play, I started a goal today. I wanted to learn to play a song by Jason Mraz "I won't give up". Anyway my teacher started to get me to start playing it today. Yay

[TryingToDo180]

I really like that song and that's a great GAL activity as well I'm sure that your flatmate would love hearing you practice your guitar - NOT! lol. Just kidding with you

[hotwheelsaust]

TTD180, I know you are just kidding. And yes, he probably hates me doing that as well. Even though I mostly do it when he isn't here, or with my bedroom door shut. Unlike when I am home in a few weeks: music blaring and guitar playing anytime I want. Man cave bonus.

[TryingToDo180]

That's what my H has done since he moved out, he now has a man cave. My son mentioned last night that H has also got blue tooth speakers and he's supposed to be broke!