PATIENCE PROMISCUITY AND PROFIDIOUSNESS

[Ambivalent]

Thank you SO much P.M

Yes, this is very helpful. I will write this down since my surface is not connected to printer.

I needed direction, for I am all over the place. I can focus better with lists and strategies.

It helps to decide not to decide. It does take immense pressure off. You are so right, making a decision in my present state is NOT good.
I may be feeling crazy, but I don't want to present as crazy.

And once you begin to detach you will see that your decision making ability will become clearer as you improve from this seemingly constant state of fragility and your mind stops trying to process every detail and possible outcome at light speed.

That is EXACTLY what is happening, and what my brain is doing.

Specifics with steps are exactly what I need. I'm feeling a sense of calm already...

To detach, you have GOT to take the focus off of your H and put in on yourself. You have got to figure out who it is you are, who it is you want to be, and begin working to reconcile the differences between those two versions of yourself.

Part of the challenge here, for me, is that one of H's major complaints was " feeling as if he were not important, an after thought ", and finances.

How does one separate that from reconciling what person [iI] want to be and who I am ? Do I not address this?

I want this to get better for you too. Are you on board?

Yes! You have given me tips on how to compartmentalize. I never could do this before, nor understand it. There is such a difference from a generalization and a step by step breakdown.

It is SO much easier to comprehend when under the overwhelming consummation of bombarding waves of emotion.

Thank you soooo much !