Quarter Life Crisis?

[flgurl84]

I've realized that when my life has a crisi or transition, I seem to turn to a certain band/genre of music. My go to, since I was 15 (15 years ago!!) has been Third Eye Blind (3EB). I have all of their CDs except for the newest one. It is the only band that I would consistently buy their music and not have to "test the waters" or listen to singles to see if I liked it. I just knew I would connect with their songs, and I always have. Not all the songs, but most I can find meaning in.

Its funny, I have not turned on my radio or XM radio in months. I literally have only listened to three 3EB CDs and a few choice songs from Red Hot Chili Peppers and Vertical Horizon. Sometimes I will listen to all the CDS, stick with one particular CD for a few days, or even listen to one song on repeat for days. Its strange, but that's what I am doing.

Here are some lyrics to songs that really speak to me now and speak to my situation. Maybe it will help someone else.

FYI the genre is I guess late 90s rock?? Not really sure. Its nor hard rock, maybe Adult Alternative? I dunno, but I like it. And it was funny, a few months ago I was having dinner with MIL and fiancé and they asked what my favorite band was to put in Pandora and I was EMBARRASSED to say 3EB! I think back on it and wonder why? What would they have said, they didn't know the band? Who cares! And now I feel like this band sings my feelings to me and I betrayed them just a few months ago, betrayed myself. I am ashamed that I betrayed myself, my likes, my interest, thinking that people, who supposedly loved and accepted, would judge me! Who had I become?

Whatever I became, I am not anymore. I am me. I like what I like and I'm not embarrassed by it. I am actually pretty pleased with myself