Its official, after almost 2 months of NC, wifes choice. She came over tonight and said she was "done, I want the divorce".
She told me she had a friend that was with her that was drunk, 2x in the last coupe of months. Said I was going around saying she was a terrible mom, a drunk, cheating with a gay man, that I was having her followed 24/7?? I'm amazed, i'll admit I did some things I regret I could have don't different the first couple of months, BUT NONE OF THAT. She's been using it as fuel to build the wall up further against me since. Until today she just needed it all over with.
She could never just talk to me, I was supposed to be a mind reader, I was supposed to guess on what was going on. Then came BD day, since she's said all I do is mind read, all I do is guess? Well this last 2 months, I was standing and lovingly detached, giving her the room she needed. I'm not sure who this person is but they've said things I've never said, I feel sabotaged to a point.
I know i'll survive, I didn't put in all this work on myself for no reason. All I wanted was her to put in some work on herself, even if it didn't save our marriage. I was hoping for too much I guess. 22 years, wow. Its time to take the next steps in life.
