Nero, you are never sickening. Though I do love to hear you sounding positive, just because I care about you.
Yea, I grew up with all those proverbs, too. Some of them are true, I guess.
Anyway, it does suckk when a family member can bring such bad feelings to you. It happens,though. I have one or two myself.
And yea, it is hard to accept that there really arent things you can absolutely count on. But there are two things that you absolutely can - Him and yourself. And I think those are the two most important ones.
You should be proud of you, Nero. You are working through a very difficult thing. And you are figuring stuff out along the way.