Becoming PatientMan IV - It Is Well With My Soul

[PatientMan]

When did you feel detached? Was it due to the length of your timeline?

I honestly don't know WHAT did it. The experience was like driving my car in the left lane of the highway, with W's car up ahead of me in the right lane. I couldn't stop focusing on her car with it up there, seemingly taunting me all the time, reminding me of what I DON'T have, but desperately wanted.

So I focused on the road, determined to move forward on my own, happy in my own car - but I looked up ahead again and she was still there. Then I focused on the road some more - better focus this time - but I looked up ahead again and she was still there. Then I went back to focusing on the road - REALLY hard for a LONG time - and all of a sudden I looked up and she wasn't there, which surprised me. I checked my review mirror and she was behind me.

I don't know how she got there or I got here, whether she slowed down or I sped up...it just happened without me noticing until it was already done.

I suppose you are still standing. Any specific timeline to let go completely and move on to another relationship?

"I will remain faithful to my vows."

Technically that is until she dies, I die, or she enters into a covenant relationship (marriage) with another man. As far as my heart goes, I have no idea...there's no timeline or technicality for that.

-PM