Intro - hoping for support/advice on DBing

[melissag]

Wow, I need help today. H packed some of his things this morning after I left. His closet is almost empty. It's like a knife to the chest. I started to panic thinking about the things he might take so I went down to the basement and grabbed our wedding photos and a few other things and put them in my closet. I don't want him taking things like that and throwing them in the trash. I feel completely hysterical and crazy right now - how the F am I going to do this? I have been keeping a PMA and GAL and 180ing and now that he is moving out in 2 days, I feel the walls crashing down on me. I can't do this. I feel like I want a hole to open in the ground and swallow me. How the F did we get here? It is crushing pain. Someone please give me a pep talk, or a hammer on the head, or something. I need help. I also need help trying to figure out a plan for Thursday morning. I usually take the kids to school around 8:30. The movers are coming at 9:30. I don't want to be here and watch him move, I think I might literally die. Am I supposed to just get up, eat, get the kids ready, and walk out the door like it's a normal day? Bye, H, have a good day??? Help. I'm drowning.