It's still football season-when's my bye week?

[reachingHigher]

We all went to church as a family. Today was all saints day so we lit candles for those who had passed the last year, including my FIL. W and I sat next to each other. She leaned over and asked if I would light the candle. I agreed to do so of course.
.....I'm not sure what to make of it all. It was a real honor to stand up front with her mother and our family and light the candle in his memory.

This is so sweet, Mtnman. I'm guessing this is a very difficult time for your W, daddy's little girl. It looks like she really trusts you, and that is so good, so positive.

I've been thinking today about why I still want her. Looking at her in church, she has gained weight, she obviously got home late last night or this morning and hadn't showered, she has treated me worse than a dog, and has hurt our children more than I thought possible. So, why? Why do I still love her? I don't know, but I do. Love could be the only thing stranger than mlc.

Love is a wonder. I was pondering love recently, too. I think love is stronger than loss of trust. It appears to be so.

I'm so glad you feel this longing for her still. That you haven't given up yet. Despite the ten lonely months.

Thinking of you,
rH